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Well I know it is weigh in day but my scale ran out of batteries and I really don't want to drive to Jubilee and buy some today. (DANG SNOW) But I did think I would share with all of you my middle of the night thoughts from the other day. I was thinking as my body was aching and no it was not because I had worked out so long and hard I could hardly move it was because I got my flu shot and had a bad reaction to it. But in my mind I was thinking i needed help. I was feeling like my aches wouldn't be as bad if I wasn't as overweight as I am now. Sadly I am heavier than I have ever been and I know my body had a horrible shock a year ago and I know that is a major part of it and I know my body is just starting to feel better in some ways so I am not going to push things but I am going to recommit myself to myself (in a way) First and always first is the well being of my family and that takes first every time but somewhere in my schedule I am going to fit myself in there. So (in the middle of the night) I was thinking. I would love to go to the gym but I can't afford that. I would love to join a group. But I can't afford that. I would love some new exercise equipment. But allas I can't afford that either :( No I am not whining about money it isn't only money it is time too. See my life is so busy right now none of those things seem realistic. And the thoughts of another monthly payment to a gym or group make my stomach tie in knots so where do I turn ****CLUB ZERO**** Wahoo I am so glad this is here. I am going to start keeping track of the things I eat. Eat better. And actually find that few precious minutes I need to exercise and feel better about myself. I know the weight won't go fast but I really am going to commit myself to myself and make myself happier and healthier :) Thanks Club Zero buddies.

Darla